Size 20 to size 14

I was going to Seattle with a friend and wanted to wear something decent. I had a nice pair of new pants that I had never worn that I decided to try on. I figured there was no way they would fit me seeing as I couldnt pull them up past my knees a few months ago. Not only did they fit but they are actually too big!! My mind still has not caught up with my actual size. I have not been this size on over 5 years. It sounds silly but I almost started crying. I guess because I was happy and in shock. I have been overweight so long that maybe I thought I would never be thin again but with each passing week I get closer to my goal!

Things are still going good although I am fighting magor fatigue. I am now in the 160's, YEAH! Every week that goes by my goal seems more within reach. I start private Pilates instruction/PT next week, I am very excited. I hope that it will really make a difference in my overall conditioning and decrease my back/neck pain.

170lbs!!

The scale officially read 170 this morning, for a total loss of about 30 pounds. I have not been that small since right after I had Noah. I am hoping by the end of my second month I will be at least 165 or smaller. The weight is coming off so quickly that my brain is'nt really able to catch up. Losing weight affects so many mudane things you never think about. I can sit differently, exercising is easier, I am sleeping better, I could go on and on. I know I will eventually be at my goal weight but the anticipation is killing me. In the meantime I am having a fun time looking at clothes online. When I eventually get there I plan on buying a "reward outfit" A really killer black dress and some black leather knee high boots!

This weekend I finally dug through my smaller clothes to see if anything fit. To my suprise I found stuff that I had'nt been able to wear for about 4 years! When I started trying on clothes it was the first time I really felt like I had lost weight. Even though I see it on the scale I still cant see it in the mirror. The last time I lost weight it took me almost a year to really see myself as a size 4/6. In my mind I was still a size 22. Most people look forward to buying clothes when they loose weight. Me, I have about 3 rough totes FULL of clothes that are too small for me. I saved old cothes and also bought things that were too small. I know I am not the only one guilty of doing that.....